What am I listening to while writing : Muse – Absolution
All is just a matter of energy.
The universe is Energy. We are Energy...
And these days, I just terribly lack of it. And I know why... The most disturbing is that I know why.
Dependency... Lack of disciplin. I know what I should do, but somehow I do not do it...
The other day, this girl, that we will call Cristina, she told me... Do what you are, and Be what you do. Yeah, I know.
But why the fuck am I not doing it!
Why the fuck am I refusing to live!
Why the fuck do I keep on doing things that are not what I am!
Why the fuck do I keep on acting as if I was afraid of something, when there is nothing I am afraid of!
Why am I damned playing Mr. Lookatmeamniceandlightandfunny, when I am so deeply only interested in significant, spiritual, mindblowing relationships!
Why the fuck am I keeping on wanting to be loved by everyone, when I have no interest in the vast majority of the “others”!
And, before all, why the fuck am I asking all those questions, when I know all of the answers!
Just stop knowing who you are, just be who you are!